No Sunshine

My name Taylor Elizabeth, my mother named me after the designer Elizabeth Taylor. I don't know why, because that lady is famous, and momma always say, I ain't going to be shit and I'm starting to believe her. I'm fifteen with two kids, by my daddy. I'm still in middle school, I can't even read or write, but I go to school to escape. My favorite class is math, my teacher Mr.Collins is so fine. Mr. Collins like me, I can tell. He always winking at me like the little girl off the Wendy's commercial. I like him too.I look in his big blue eyes and lose reality, but then i snap out it. It's always someone who gotta mess up my daydreams. Terrell Raye, class clown, he ain't going to be shit either. He just like me, don't know nothing. He the smallest boy in our class, fifteen too, just like me. I wonder what his life, did his daddy F him, like mines did me. I was two when it started even though I don't remember that far back. I was five, my momma called out my name "Mook", I loved my momma then, she was all I had, all I knew. "Yes Momma" , I walked to her, she was in the bathroom running water in the tub, with bubbles. That was my favorite, and she knew it.! She kissed me on my forehead and started to undress me, telling me a story, about the birds and bees, I think thats what she said its called. she washed me down and even comb my hair, repeatedly told me how beautiful I am, and I believed her. It felt good to know that I had someone to care about me like momma did that day. I dried off and  put on new pajamas, pink, orange, green, and teal flowers.I laid with momma in bed like I normally would, but this time I couldn't go to sleep. I was so excited about my new pajamas, I couldn't stop smiling. I felt something, a hand, going up my new nightgown, into my underwear. I turned to look at momma, but momma was daddy and daddy hand was exploring my body, I laid there looking at the ceiling. momma told be before, that no one except my parents was allowed to see my privates or touch them, it was daddy so I  guess it was fine. It hurt though, daddy hand hurt me. I cried and he wiped my tears about, and called me daddy's baby. Eventually he stopped and I felt better. I wonder were momma went, she came back in the room out of no where. I don't remember going to sleep that night, but I remember waking up. Momma and daddy was fussing, and I begun to scream, there was blood all over me, my pajamas were ruined. My momma said thats when I started my period. "Elizabeth, Elizabeth" Mr. Collins said he had been calling my name for five minutes now, "classes are changing your about to be late, lets go".